It was a question for the first time I ever asked myself when I woke up. 38 years of living and I have never asked myself this question before…
It’s 1:19 AM and I have been awake with anxiety because of being slapped with the cold hard fish of reality. How’s that for pleasant dreams. Before bed I was reading a book about making peace with your thighs and how Barbie is the influence of negative image and how the removal of self is the ultimate skurge of your soul.
Let go and let god was one of the comments at the end of the chapter. Is God up at 1:21 AM. If so why and the hell is the world such a mess? Why am I full of fish reality and the bum dimples of dissatisfaction.
I had a really hard time with that sentence. Let go and let god. I think because it makes me think that it lulls people into thinking that action is not needed if you let god take care of it.
Then why do I have cellulite? If I let go of the media of god I can accept that I am not perfect. According to the internet god I am not perfect. And according to the magazine and TV god we subscribe to I am not perfect.
What is perfect is the way in which we see the people that we love. You look at them and see something sweet, something kind and something whole.
The challenge is to see that in ourselves, be that for ourselves and see the things that you love in others in yourself.
So now what? I am still awake at 1:26 AM and no end in site of my cellulite. Except to accept that to change it is up to us to do and then let go and then let god.
I think I need to let go of the god of TV, Internet and Magazines that determine my happiness and decide for myself what that will be.
Happiness is a result of doing and accepting and being. Together.
Reality is determined by those you have chosen to make friends with and help others by being the role model you search for.
So perhaps instead of asking yourself… What do I have to do today? Ask yourself what WILL I FINISH today? It puts a completely different spin on your day and allows for better achievement instead of defeat.
Tell me below what it is you decided to finish today!
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Hey Rebecca,
Finally figured out this whole comment
thing. Man, you make people jump through
hoops to comment here. Hah.
Yeah, I was gonna say… I would I WILL finish
three articles today… and I did.
I tried to comment on this post the other day
but finally got my password.
And I agree,
“Happiness is a result of doing and accepting
and being. Together.”
Or “It’s 1:19 AM and I have been awake with
anxiety because of being slapped with the cold
hard fish of reality.”
I think we’ve all had a few of those nights. Just reading
that almost gives me an anxiety attack.
That is funny! You get anxiety from being slapped by fish? Good thing I only had a few posts for you to read. I may have kept you up late at night with blog dialog and fog blog
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